What is an appropriate age to decide what you want to do with your life? You are now expected to have some sort of idea by the time you finish high school. While at this age I do believe you have at least a general idea of what you want to focus on, 16 is still young to make that sort of decision. I changed my mind last minute; literally, as I was applying. Luckily, my last minute change was the right decision. I went to school for something that I loved doing. My classes didn’t really feel like work (well most of them, no one is ever going to love everything). Movies and TV were always things I just enjoyed, studying ratings, box office, reviews, etc. They were hobbies I never knew I could make a career out of. Going through school, I was never fully sure what I wanted to focus on as my career. I enjoyed publicity, marketing, advertising as well as production and writing. I ended up focusing on the business side of the industry with my internship and ended up at a major studio as the publicity intern. Now, almost three years later, I am still there. I have had my responsibilities change and grow, giving me exposure to many different sides of the business. All of this is great, except for the fact that I still don’t really know what I want to do with my life.
Two things I do know: I am in the right industry and I want to end up in California. I know that the entertainment industry is what I am passionate about; it’s what I know best and what I believe I am good at. Now what in the industry am I good at? That is a very good question. I love developing stories, ideas for series, but do I believe I have what it takes to be a writer? Do I have the skills and eye needed for being a director or cinematographer? These are things that I have been trying to figure out while keeping my current job. Since I am only on contract, I feel as though I haven’t become stuck in my current role. However applying for full time positions without knowing exactly what I want to do is what concerns me. Will I become comfortable and stay? Is it a waste of time? Can I figure out what I really want to do with a permanent job? Am I heading in the wrong direction? These are questions I ask myself every day. Questions that I don’t know the answer to. So what to do now?
I guess that is what your 20’s is for; figuring out what the heck you want to do with your life, making mistakes and trying new things. It would be nice if we still had guidance from teachers, a curriculum to follow, someone to tell you what’s wrong and right. But where would the fun be in that, right?